Wednesday, August 13, 2008

Entitlement and Rights

Living in the United States of America, we are considered blessed. With a land flowing in milk and honey and abundant in meats and grain, and many other natural resources; we tend to think ourselves “the blessed country.” With those who profess a belief in God, we quite often take the ethnocentric position of believing God favors our country most because of the so-called “blessings” we’ve received. (I will admit living in the United States is probably one of the best countries to be born or reside.) Because we possess these “blessings,” I noticed a certain stain in our attitudes with the way we think. I believe this is an epidemic or plague upon our minds, hearts, and spirits. We have adopted an attitude and taken a position claiming entitlement and rights to justify receiving what we think we deserve.
This egocentric form of thinking, of course, is not new to Americans. Throughout history, humans have always struggled with this juvenile ideology. THE TRUTH IS, WE DESERVE NOTHING AND HAVE RIGHTS TO THE SAME; NOTHING. What have we ever done to deserve anything? We don’t choose our location or time of birth; our parents, ethnicity, or heritage; or our biological traits or physiological characteristics. God chose those details for us. We are who we are and have what we have because God willed or allowed it as so.
We need to depart from this idea that any of us deserves or has the right to anything; because we don’t. We didn’t do anything to deserve the oxygen we breathe, the plants and animals we eat, the clothes we wear, or the shelter over our heads. What did we ever do to have the right to anything? We are all born naked and without any possessions of our own. We didn’t choose to receive this life; God gave us the gift of life.
I present the truth. Anything we receive in our lifetimes is only due to the mercy and grace of our Creator; God. He created and willed our births to this earth, without needing or wanting our approval or consent. He designed us to live off the oxygen in the air, sustain our lives with the energy and nutrients of plants and animals, and possess the intelligence to make clothing and use the resources in our environment to build or take shelter. We didn’t earn these abilities or knowledge. We received them from God.
We don’t deserve or have a right to this life, but our Father’s infinite love desires us to live it.

Spiritual Dream - Carp & Woman in N.C.

Preface. The weekend of September 22-25, 2006, I stayed in Newton, NC, with Lindsay Carpenter visiting her Uncle Greg. I escorted Lindsay on the trip to NC because the vehicle she drove was registered in her uncle’s name, in NC, and she needed to return there to renew the registration. Included on this trip were Lindsay, her son Kyler, and me. Lindsay informed me before the trip that the house we were going to be staying in had a history of spiritual activity. I thought little of it.

Prelude. The Saturday night of September 23, 2006, I went to bed around midnight. I fell asleep quickly, for I was quite tired. I kept waking up abruptly. The third time I awoke, I stayed awake. I knew it was three o’ clock in the morning, now Sunday, September 24, because I heard three gongs chime from the grandfather clock downstairs. Lying on my left side, in the bed, I heard footsteps on the old hardwood floor at the foot of the bed. I kept my eyes closed while my heart felt like it was coming through my chest. I knew no one had come into my room because the door was closed and when opened it makes a loud squeaking noise. I laid there and listened intently, while praying, as the footsteps went from the end of the bed to around behind me. The footsteps stopped and the rocking chair began to rock back and forth. Then the chair stopped and the footsteps started again. The footsteps retraced around to the end of my bed and back to the rocking chair and rocked again. This happened three times in a course of about twenty minutes; all the while a thunderstorm was happening outside. After the third time in the rocking chair, it all stopped. I laid there for about an hour until I calmed down enough to fall asleep again.

The first dream. After falling back asleep, my dream continued from reality. In my dream I was lying on my left side, when I heard a voice call my name from the rocking chair. I recognized the voice, so without fear, I asked, “Is that you papaw?” The voice returned, “Yes. Nic, I love you, and tell everyone else that I love them too.” Then I awoke. I never saw his image, I just heard his voice. I laid there for a few minutes thinking about the dream I just had, and then I fell back asleep. (Papaw was the name for Lindsay’s grandfather who had passed away about 5 years previous. I had briefly known him when he was alive. In that same room I was sleeping, was his old robe, dresser, and personal items box. He was a wonderfully faithful follower of Jesus Christ).

The second dream. After falling back asleep, again my dream continued from reality. In my dream I was lying on my left side. Except the lamp next to the bed was on and shining in my face. So rather than bothering to turn it off, I turned over to my right side. As I turned over, I discover a woman lying next to me. She was wearing some sort of long night robe with her arms promptly at her side. She had red wavy hair down to her shoulders, bright blue eyes, and porcelain skin on her face. I stared at her while propped up on my right elbow. She intently looked at me and said, “So you are going to be a minister?” I replied, “Yes I am.” Then she said, “Well not if I have anything to do with it.” Then all the sudden she jumps to her feet and points down at me and says, “I have money and power, and I am going to get you kicked out of Southeastern.” I pointed back at her and said, “Dr. Mark Rutland is a spiritual man and he won’t allow that to happen.” Then I jumped to my feet, while saying, “I have taken off the clothes of the world and put on the clothes of Christ.” She then started to curse me in a language I didn’t understand. So I grabbed her head and she grabbed my shoulders. We began to wrestle. I wrestled her down to the bed. I was on my knees and she was on her back. When I got to the bed, she became the image of my sister. So I said to her, “Tell me you love me, tell me you love me.” (I knew love is what breaks curses and can only come from God). But the woman kept cursing me. The wrestling got more intense and she got my left side down to the bed. That’s when two arms of a black man came through the bed next to her and grabbed my lower back with a tight grip. Then a bald black man’s head popped up through the bed and started biting me on my left backside ribs; the same area of my bullet entry scar. The pain was so intense that I immediately awoke from my sleep. As I awoke from my dream, I was on my hands and knees. I sat back against the headboard of the bed. I looked around and I was alone and the sun was shining through the window. I looked at my cell phone and the time was exactly nine o’ clock in the morning. So I got dressed and went downstairs. I walked into the kitchen, where Lindsay and Peggy (Greg’s wife) were sitting at the kitchen table drinking coffee. I poured some coffee for myself and proceeded to tell them about my experience with the footsteps and the dreams that followed. They were amazed. After sharing my experiences, Peggy said that they hadn’t had any spiritual activity in years, and the room I was staying in was the most spiritual room in the house. (The room used to be the maid’s quarters and separate from the house and the house used to be part of a plantation). Then Lindsay suggested that she and Peggy take a look at my back. To their amazement, as they lifted up my shirt, they found red scratch marks on both sides of my lower back, and a red bite mark on my upper left ribs. Everything had really happened. I had been attacked in my dream.

Details. The voice in the first dream was true and concise. I knew the voice, so fear never overcame me. The appearance of the woman was very vivid. I can still see her now in my mind.
The struggling felt real, and the black arms with clawing hands and the black head that bit my back, were both real.

Spiritual Dream - Glass House

Preface. On July 26, 2006, after Wednesday night prayer and ending a seven-day fast, I drove over to my friends’ apartment, Chris and Lindsay Murphy’s home. I went over there to talk to them about my recent separation from the girl I loved. She broke up with me on July 17, and I wanted to hear their perspective and spiritual advice. The evening went well and as I was leaving, Chris said to me, “Because you are a Christian and becoming a pastor, you live in a glass house.” That really spoke to me. I had heard that expression before, but now it really meant something to me. I meditated on that idea all week. The following Saturday night I went out with some friends. I returned home late and went to bed at approximately 2:30 AM on July 30. I didn’t know that I was about to have my first impacting spiritual dream.

My Dream. The dream started with me standing inside a huge glass house while looking up. This house was enormous and larger than any house or barn I had ever seen. While standing at one end, I looked down towards the opposite end and I could see a numerable amount of people talking amongst themselves. For some reason, I knew there was exactly 300 people altogether and not one person was talking with me. I didn’t think anything of it and I didn’t know any of them. I turned around to see what was behind me, and I noticed I stood in the doorway at one end of the house. As I looked out the door, I saw these ominous black clouds looming and circulating around my glass house. The black clouds were wavy and thick. They were deep black and appeared like snakes slithering in the air and on the ground. They were so close, that I could have reached out and touched them. But I didn’t. I couldn’t see through the clouds themselves. The clouds surrounded my house from the ground to the sky. As I looked at these clouds, I could periodically see breaks in them. When I looked through the breaks, I could see beautifully lush, bright green grass. The kind of grass that anyone would love to just sit or lay down in. That’s when all the sudden the black clouds starting spinning around my glass house. They whirled around like a tornado with increasing speed. The speed in which the clouds circulated started to cause my glass house to dismantle. When that started happening, all the people inside my glass house hurried out the door at the other end and I just stood there. In all this fury and destruction, fear never overcame me. Also, in the midst of the destruction, as the debris was circulating, none of it struck me. I couldn’t even feel the wind. I just watched as my house was being destroyed. Then suddenly from above my house, a bright light broke through the dark spinning clouds. The light shined right down on top of me. The light was beautiful, radiant, and calming. (Not like the sun). The light was brighter, but it didn’t hurt my eyes to stare into it. Also, from where the light originated, I could not see a source. Not a round sphere or any orb. Nothing. As I looked into this light, I could feel peace and protection. As I started feeling the calming of the light, I awoke from my dream.

Details. The colors of the clouds and grass were so vivid. The clouds and glass house were very distinct in shape and texture. The people were all wearing the same clothes. No one looked any different than the other. I had never had a dream that seem so real. Not to mention, the dream has never escaped my memory. I still remember every little detail.